I got up at 1:00 in the morning and walked into our second bedroom where Chuk was at his computer. I said, "I can't sleep. I have a lot on my mind."
He said, "Me too."
I asked, "Do you want to talk?" He did. So we talked for a little while about what was going on in our relationship. We hadn't really resolved anything, but he told me what was on his mind and then asked me what my thoughts were.
Then, in the middle of the night (it had to have been after 2:00 am) I sent him to the 24-hour CVS to buy a pregnancy test. He is awesome and did it. He came home and I took a test and it was negative. And even though I had been hoping it was negative, I was still kind of sad.
My period still hasn't started and I'm not really sure how I feel about it. On the one hand, it would suck if I was pregnant because we live in a very small apartment and I don't have a job, therefore we can't afford another person. On the other hand, it would be kind of rad because I don't have a job so I'd be able to spend a lot of time taking care of myself and the baby and I have been dreaming about having a baby recently.
To you parents out there, did you have mixed emotions upon becoming pregnant? I'm so worried this ambivalence isn't normal and means I'm going to be a bad mom or something. Also, when should I take another pregnancy test? Are pregnancy tests ever incorrectly negative? Do you know of any medical conditions that would cause my period to be two weeks late but exhibit no other symptoms? In short, do you think I'm pregnant or not?