Johann Heinrich Fussli's The NightmareI had the worst nightmare last night that I was staying at my mom and stepdad’s house and they had this “pet” from Africa that had the head of a duck and the body of a dog. The beak was really, really wide.
Obviously, I had never heard of this type of animal before, so I was asking my stepdad about it and he told me that it ate eggs…human eggs. Then I became totally scared of it because I knew it was going to use its crazy, wide beak to take the eggs from inside my body and eat them.
I kept running away from the animal, but it would chase me so it could eat. Everybody thought it was really funny that I was so scared and they kept laughing at me because they said the pet wouldn’t hurt me, but I was scared anyway.
I guess I don’t need to be a rocket scientist to figure out this dream has got to be about my declining fertility. But what the heck? Why all of a sudden so many baby cravings?
When you knew you were ready to have kids, did the urge kind of gradually build or did it hit you all at once like a ton of bricks? I thought it would be the former when/if it ever happened for me, but it has proven to be the latter.
Creepy dream! If I knew you in 3D life I wouldn't mind you telling me this dream, it's just aching for Freudian analysis :)
ReplyDeleteAs for baby-making, we planned to wait a year or two after our wedding, but then my FIL was pretty sick and we thought we better have them soon if they're to know their grandfather (who's over 70). He's strong as an ox but definitely fooled us (and my two sisters in law)! I don't regret it for a minute, though, my son is the light of my life. I don't think I ever would've felt "ready," though, so jumping right in worked for me.
I thought it would be slow too- but this past weekend we went to see family and a new baby and it hit- hard. It even hit Chris too. I don't know what to do- I mean- wow. Hanging out with kids has never down this to me before- but it hit like a ton of bricks just like you said! weird.
ReplyDeleteDid you do those dream things online? They are always fun. Sounds like a scary dream to me.
Ton of bricks, all the way (I was 27, we had been married 3 years). And just when my husband embarked on a 3 year grad program. I was pregnant 3 months before his graduation - we were soooooo ready.
ReplyDeleteBut just so you don't think I was ready for motherhood and sailed right into it, I did have a rough adjustment to being a parent (my husband did not) and had post partum depression. I've lived through it twice now and I'm a stronger person - hasn't stopped me from thinking about a 3rd baby either.
If your clock is ticking, go with it; these biological things can be trusted, I think.