Tuesday, February 2, 2010

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

Friday was my last day at my temp job, so I'm back to being a housewife this week. I had big plans to get my apartment back into shape, but that really hasn't happened yet. (It's been woefully neglected. Sadly, I think I may just have to accept that my husband will never notice when the TV remote needs to be wiped of its grime or when the kitchen washcloth needs to be changed.) I've gotten some things done, but not as much as I've wanted to.

I had to go to the doctor yesterday for the first time in two and a half years. (Please tell me I'm not the only one who tries to eat and drink less than normal before a doctor appointment so they'll weigh less.) I've been having pretty intense pain in my neck for the last couple of weeks. There is a hardness running vertically down the back left side of my neck; when you touch it it feels like I have a second spine. The doctor said he's never seen anything so severe, which is not comforting.

Apparently I'm having muscle spasms except it never unspasms; the muscle is just remaining taut. It feels like a pinched nerve or a charley horse in my neck that never goes away. Anyway, he's prescribed some muscle relaxers which seem to be helping a some, but they're knocking me out. All the rest is hindering my cleaning and organizing, but I'm trying to be ok with it. I can only do what I can do.

In other news, today I skipped my afternoon dose of muscle relaxer so I could go to an orientation for a new volunteer program I'm participating in. It's for a really great organization with a mission I am passionate about. I'm hoping it will be a good opportunity for me to get experience in the field I'm trying to enter which will in turn help me get a job, and be a place where I can meet new friends. So, I'm excited about it.


  1. I know that pain - it's so awful. Hope it subsides and I'm so inspired by your finding an organization that you're passionate about - what a great idea to start on a new path.

  2. That's never a good feeling when the doctor sounds concerned! I hope the meds make you feel better. Did he suggest a chiropractor or massage therapist? I have no idea if that would help or not. Feel better!

  3. That sounds awful! Maybe some moist heat would help it feel better (and not knock you out).
    I know that feeling of frustration, especially if you're at home and trying not to notice all the things you want to do. I wish you peace.

  4. Ugh, that sounds awful. You might also consider acupuncture. Hope you feel better soon!


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